Looking forward
Looking forward at seventeen meant
to grow small and frail and to whimper
under the weight of utter fear.
Looking forward at nineteen meant
the smallest of hope, a sliver
of optimism, the faintest dream.
Looking forward now means
knowing that love finds me
because I find community,
seeing whatever roof over my head
I can find and turning it pink and green,
soft and comforting,
knowing baked goods will be there
and so will pets and tea and kindness.